Look right

For the past 10 months, I’ve been walking in the same loop around the Texas Capitol. I do the same weird turns to make the walk a tiny little bit longer, trying to trap the warm air before I go back into a cold library. Monday, I will start this walk from another side of the Capitol. It’s a tiny geographic disruption, but it’s a huge career change for me as well. In my worry about taking a new job, I find myself preoccupied with these walks. Will I still get to take them? How many steps from my new job around the Capitol complex? Will I get too hot?

In times of transition, I fixate on the small things. When I moved to Texas, I obsessed about how my cat, Florence, would travel. When I moved in with Caroline, I obsessed about her dresser. Now, the walks.

Changing perspectives can be simple. I was stuck in traffic yesterday in the rain, and my windshield wipers were being weird, and the rain wasn’t cleaning my very dirty car the way I’d have liked. I looked to the left and saw dark clouds and traffic. I started crying, from the simple things piling up and the big transitions looming in the background (it didn’t help that I was up til 2 am celebrating the Cubs – we are good). I looked to my right, and I saw the most beautiful rainbow. The stripes of color were thick and vibrant against a gray-blue sky.

Today, go right where you usually go left. The little things, they give us the perspective we need to battle the big things. Keep your eyes open.

Image:

Pae White. Restless Rainbow, 2011. Inkjet printed on vinyl. © Pae White.

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